Ugh. I’ve been in a mood today. Bloated, tired, off-center—and, if I’m being totally honest, struggling to shake it. I woke up feeling full (not in the good, grateful way), and everything just felt heavier than usual. The last 24 hours have been tough.
My husband and I had an amazing date night—great food, good vibes, real connection—but as soon as we walked in the door, the energy shifted. We were hit with drama and disappointment. My second child, who just turned ten, had a meltdown that felt like a time machine back to some of our hardest parenting years.
He’s always been intense. From the moment he was born, it was clear he’d be a challenge in ways I couldn’t have prepared for. I remember the lactation consultant looking at me with confusion as he wailed and refused to latch. “This has nothing to do with you,” she assured me—and I believed her, but the difficulties never really let up.
For years, we kept saying, When he can crawl, he’ll be happy. When he walks. When he talks. But each milestone passed, and his frustration grew. Eventually, we got answers: ADHD, anxiety, and ODD. With the right medication—Prozac, which I also take—we found some peace. But last night, all of that progress seemed to unravel.
We asked the boys to put their iPads away, and the next two hours were chaos. He was hitting, screaming, destroying things, threatening us, threatening his brother. It was heartbreaking. Eventually, the storm passed. He came back to himself and apologized profusely. And while I was proud of myself for staying calm—thank you, Kabbalah and spiritual growth—it still left me shaken.
This morning, getting dressed for his baseball game, nothing in my closet fit. I know hormones are playing a role, but it still hit me hard. The extra five pounds. The frustration. The feeling of defeat.
Honestly? I was having a full-blown pity party.
So… what now?
I’m choosing to shift. I’m choosing to acknowledge the hard stuff and reach for gratitude. I’m choosing to believe that just because today felt heavy doesn’t mean tomorrow won’t be lighter.
Oh—and a little glimmer of hope came through today: I got a random $25 refund from a walk-in clinic we visited ages ago. Thank you, Universe. That unexpected blessing reminded me that abundance is always trying to find its way to me.
✨ Money is abundant. It flows to me freely. I am open to receiving. ✨
Gratitude Practice
Thank you for my family.
Thank you for my dog.
Thank you for youth sports.
Thank you for work friends.
Thank you for washing machines.
Thank you for cable TV and cozy nights in.
Thank you for the weekend.
Thank you for my car.
Thank you for queso (yes, really).
Thank you for my husband and his steady support.
Manifestation Practice
✨ I am so happy and grateful now that I’m at my ideal weight and feel strong and confident in my skin.
✨ I am so happy and grateful now that we live in our dream home—beautiful, peaceful, and full of love.
✨ I am so happy and grateful now that money flows freely and consistently to our family.
✨ I am so happy and grateful now that I drive my dream car—a white Escalade that brings me joy every day.
✨ I am so happy and grateful now that we travel often, making memories in beautiful places around the world.
✨ I am so happy and grateful now that I work from home, doing what I love and creating a life of balance and fulfillment.
Even when the energy feels off, I know I can choose to realign. My power lies in how I respond—and today, I choose to lean into gratitude, trust the process, and believe in the beauty that’s unfolding. ✨
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